Only Wanna Be With You

By: Rozwell

i don't know what you do to me. i see eternity staring back at me. i made a vow to you that i'm gonna keep. like watching over you everytime you sleep. when i think about what i'd do for you. it makes me think about all the things you do. you never once complained about the bad things. you swallowed all your pride and held inside all of your pain.

* i only wanna be with you. (wanna be with you) now i need you to need me too. no one will come between me and you. (never. oooh). we will live our lives forever. (forever) we'd even cry together. (we'll cry) forever. and ever. and ever.

tell me all the things that will make you smile. you say that diamond rings are really not your style. i know you're breaking rules. when it comes to loving you. i know it's hard to choose the one you give your loving to. people ask you why and what you see in me. a smile is your reply. you say it's meant to be. that's what i love about you. you give me all of you. the only one in this whole world i'll give my love to.

I didn't have parents, so I lived in people's homes... And because I grew up with no parental role models, I learned to become my own friend, eventually my own father and my own mother.

John Lone

My Reflections on Oriental Movies

I saw the film, Fearless, yesterday. It was supposedly Jet Li's last martial arts film. I was glad to find out that it didn't have that "Hollywood" flick. It was a purely Oriental film from start to finish, except for the inclusion of some necessary Western characters. The film teaches its viewers that martial arts is supposed to be used for maintaining a sound mind and body, and to help other people in trouble. Another moral lesson of the story is that the way we start our life does not matter as much as how we end it.

I like Chinese martial arts films. Maybe part of that is because my dad loved them. My aunt once said that Bruce Lee was my dad's friend when they were in school. She also said that from the pad where they were living, Jackie Chan used to go to their rooftop for whatever reason. I am a great fan of these heroes and to know that my dad had some encounters with them simply wows me. When I am watching their movies, deep inside I feel proud to be of Chinese descent.

I am fond of the Master-disciple practice. Hearing the English dubber say "Mastahh, mastahh" somehow reminds me of my childhood days, for some reason. And I find it funny too. I also love the fact that Chinese movies promote the concept of loyalty and faithfulness towards one's family, friends and country. Faithfulness to the One above, I think it is the most difficult to achieve yet the most rewarding.

An element of Oriental movies that I find most fascinating is love for one's family. For the Chinese, the family is above all, for blood is thicker than water. Only recently have I started to grab the real meaning of this. As I had written in my previous post, ours wasn't a tight family and I had always felt sad about it. But I am thankful that things have started to change recently. No matter what kind of family I have, they are the only family I can have in this lifetime. And they should have my love and loyalty above everything else in this world.

I am so happy that even though our mom didn't vocally teach us these things, I learned them through reading and watching films. I think these are important things to learn before settling down and raising one's own family.

I believe that the Chinese, Japanese, Koreans and other nations are successful because of the values that their ancestors have passed down to them. These are values that teach people to be loyal to each other, and consider one's family and country more important than friendship with foreign nations. This must have been the reason why our nation was never able to maintain its good reputation and high economic status in the past. Filipinos have good values but these are easily shaken. It is sad and it is true.

Ghandi said, You must be the change that you wish to see in the world. If I want to see some positive changes in my own little society, I should start with myself and my children. Firm values, I believe this is the way.

A Pug's Life

When we were little kids and our dad was still living, we would enjoy the friendly company of pugs. We had three pugs then namely Candy, Butterfly and Whiskey. Candy was our first pug and she had the same color as the one in the photo above. Butterfly, on the other hand had black fur. Whiskey had soft fur that was fawn just like Candy. Our dad was deeply fond of dogs and at that time we had a variety of dog breeds at home. But the most special to us were the pugs because they lived inside our home. More importantly, they shared a common charm that most people will find endearing.

We did not have a chance say goodbye to Candy, Butterfly and Whiskey who passed away with our dear dad a long time ago.

We had a pug after a few years later who we named Kimchi. Like our first pug friends, she was energetic, fun-loving and she wanted very badly to get our attention in her own charming ways. At that time I thought it was just a unique personality they possessed. It was only recently that I learned that pugs in general share the same level of hyperactivity.

Kimchi had a wonderful life when she was young because she was allowed inside our home. She was like a jewel in our home who brought happiness to us siblings because she was given special treatment. But when we moved to a different place, that was when life became rough for her. She was no longer allowed to enjoy our company inside our home so that she had to be locked up in a cage in the garage. Since then, mange and rashes started to appear on her skin. After some more time, her skin became rougher and she had a foul smell, not to mention ticks that seemed to suck the blood out of her. Time passed her by as we gave her less attention and care. Her masters have changed, she may have thought. Perhaps there came a starting point when we, her only family, seldom dropped by her cage to even say hi. I noticed that Kimchi lost her cheerful spirit; old age and loneliness seemed to have taken their toll.

At that time, I didn't do much to somehow compensate for her misery except for a few pats and hi's and some food that I would drop in her cage on rare occasions. Later, Kimchi would die a tragic death. Kimchi, our fun-loving and playful dog who saw a promising future with us, passed away just like that. We did not give her a life she deserved. And perhaps, she was not given to a worthy master.

Maybe someday I will adopt a pug who will be with me inside my home. She will grow up surrounded by a family who will take care of her and love her dearly. She will be called Kimchi, after our very own.

I miss you Kimchi, now more than ever.

Ohana Means Family!

My 2006 started off with the sun giving a promising smile. Almost everything seems to be alright. It starts with my family. I feel much more bonded with them ever since we started going out every Sunday. See, our family is different from other so-called 'normal families'. We didn't have one of those weekly 'family days'. We rarely went out together... and whenever we did, it did not occur to me that it ought to be something precious...the kind that you want to relive many years from now.

I was wrong. There is nothing like having ohana days. If my memory serves me right, my family started going out every Sunday since December of last year. It started simply, with dinners, until we realized we were enjoying each other's company. Slowly, it seemed we built an unspoken agreement that Sunday is a family day.

Another notable change is that we go to church every Sunday. One may think it is weird, but we go to church separately. This is because we prefer different churches. My sister goes with me. Poor mom goes by herself. My prayer is that one day, we will enter God's house of worship together every Sunday...

Lately, we go to Antipolo for some acupuncture sessions. We all felt improvement in our health in a matter of one session. We love acupuncture! We all agree that traditional or alternative medicine is the more holistic way to maintain a good health.

I thank God because I am able to enjoy these things with my family... I want to appreciate them while we are all still living together. And because time is running, I want to cherish every moment that I spend with them because some time in the future, I know I would have enough memories to relive. I thank God because He made what seemed impossible to become a reality... Where there was full of bitterness amongst us, God must have taken that away and replaced it with forgiveness. It is not a perfect family, but I never regret being in this family.

On Happiness

George Sand: There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

Henry David Thoreau: That man is richest whose pleasures are cheapest.

Nathaniel Hawthorne: Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.

Peyton Conway March: There is a wonderful mythical law of nature that the three things we crave most in life -- happiness, peace of mind and love-- are always attained by giving them to someone else.

Robert Heinlein: Love is a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

I Miss My Time With You!

by Larnelle Harris

there he was just waiting . in our old familiar place . an empty spot beside him . where once i used to wait . to be filled with strength and wisdom . for the battles of the day . i would have passed him by again . if i didn't hear him say

(chorus)

i miss my time with you . those moments together . i need to be with you each day . and it hurts me when you say . you're too busybusy trying to serve . but how can you serve me when your spirit's empty . there's a longing in my heart . wanting more than just a part of you . it's true . i miss my time with you

what do i have to offer . how can i truly care . my efforts have no meaning . when your presence isn't there . but you will provide the power . if i take time to pray . i'll stay right here beside him . and you will never have to say..

(chorus)"

Thank You

Wow, it's been a while since I last wrote an entry here...and reading my past entry felt like going back in time... And it feels wonderful to relive them... And all it takes is a journal and not a time machine to relive them.
I realized there are some memories that I would have almost forgotten had I not taken the time to visit my blog...

Lots of things happened and the most significant is that we're in the year 2006 already.. Whew! Wow, I've been with this company for more than 2 years. I feel as though I haven't accomplished much... And that maybe it's about time to turn things around.

But how? That's the big question for 2006. But I feel it's going to be a good year... I've resolved to go to church regularly, to try to make it my priority every weekend... There are a lot of things that I want to do during my free time, and going to church means sacrificing some... I renewed a special vow... And by faith, I know God will help me turn things around.

I want to thank God for his Word that he planted in my heart years ago, because without it I probably wouldn't know my place in this world.

Thank you for your great love and for your graciousness, that you call me your friend even though I am only an unworthy servant... You are my Lord, my King... I am sorry if my lifestyle doesn't show that... Please give me the strength and humility that I need so I may surrender my life to you...